You ever feel like you know someone is fucking up their life and you tell them and try to help them out but they just don’t care. They want what they want and you don’t matter anymore. You cry and beg and do all you can. Learning that you just need to let it go. It’s their decision not yours and as much as you hate it you need to let it go. That can mean anything; learning to accept it or moving on. That’s the sad part when you realize that the person isn’t going to be a part of your life anymore like they were before….

But that’s life right? Just a whole bunch of memories and letting go.

(Source: labeauty)

Writing helps I don’t know why. Sometimes I’m pretty sure that’s the only thing that has kept me sane these past few years. 

Now I vent. I don’t know if I like what I’m doing anymore, school my major any of it. I don’t know if I’m really good at anything yet. I graduate in one semester with my Bachelor’s degree BUT I hate it. I want to go to Grad school but not right now. Right now all I want to do is run away, go be selfish not do anything. Of course that’s unrealistic I can’t do that because I have to work have to go to school have to find my big girl job. I sometimes wish I HAD the guts to just be like fuck it I’m gone BUT no. Now it’s time to figure out what I really want. That’s the hard part, do I do something because I know I need an income or do I keep searching to find something I love? Who knows all I know right now is that I need to change something because I feel off, not centered. Guess it’s time to see where I go how I change. It’s an interesting thing this whole growing up thing that so many of us wanted.

(Source: labeauty)